Dit gedicht draag ik op aan N. een vriendin van me en aan iedereen die ooit zo iets dergelijks mee heeft gemaakt!
[Gelukkig heb ik dit zelf niet mee hoeven maken, even nog ter verduidelijking!]
Daddy please don't hurt me!
The first day you came into my room
Only 6 years old, what was I supposed to do
You wanted to say "sleep tight"
But then I felt your hand as a good night
Daddy please don't hurt me
I'll be the good girl you want me to be
I won't tell a word to mommy
Because if I do, I'm the dummy
You touched me and whispered all daddies do
It's a secret between me and you
But daddy.., it didn’t feel right
You hurt me as you said goodnight
Please daddy don't hurt me tonight
I'm screaming from the bottom of my inside
Can’t you see that you are hurting me
I'm only for your pleasure, that is what I see
Day after night, night after day
I want to lock my door, I'm so affraid
After you are gone I'm crying
Is this really normal or are you lying?
Daddy please don't hurt me
I'll be the good girl you want me to be
I won't tell a word to mommy
Because if I do -you said- I’m the dummy
That Saturday night when you walked into the door
I was frightened so I ran to the opposite store
When the lady saw me crying
She didn't know why I was hiding
Daddy searched the whole neighbourhood
Looking for me as everyone understood
Nobody saw the dirty things you did with me
Nobody saw it.. will I ever be free?
Daddy please don't hurt me
I'll be the good girl you want me to be
I won't tell a word to mommy.. I swear
You saw my hurts and gave me that teddybear
Every time you made a compromise
Buying things for me so I would lie
Untill now.. nobody knows
I hate you.. You are gross
Daddy I was only 6 years old
You should have known better
17 years later full of pain and anger
I still hate you because I remember
Is there a place where I can be free?
Then please show me and give me the key
Promise me that my daddy won't be there
Daddy, it was our secret, but not anymore!!
© Danielle; April 2010